Love is nothing without friendship and trust…
Live. Laugh. Love.
Stay in love and change for the better.
Life will never give us anything we cannot handle. To move with grace and handle things with poise and a little smile will make everything alright. No one can see my struggle, but gwenchanayo. I know God will tell me, “uljima, gwenchana”.
I have to divert myself to a more happy and peaceful life. Actually, I need a real busy life. Naneun babo for believing this would end up happy but really it didn’t. It’s okay. This is life’s surprise to me. Gotta embrace the facts.
I just have to forget and stop hoping. A loud cry and a good sleep will do the technique.
As you know, it is only you and I who knows of the existence of this page and some other foreign people. I wrote this blog entry because as you know I love to post my feelings on my blog while there is an emotional surge in me. Here goes.
I love you. No one knows why but I do. I care for you deeply and I trust you with everything. You make me the happiest even when I just watch you drink your water. Maybe hold your fork or spoon. I can never really express my happiness when I am with you. It will never be measured. I treasure you like how I treasure all my books and my baking materials. I do. I really do.
I am sorry. Sorry for everything I am incapable of. I am sorry for failing you at times. I am not a perfect girlfriend (I have told you that before) but I know that maybe you see perfection in my imperfect self. I don’t know if I make you happy. But seeing you smile, it surely assures me.
I am sorry for crying that you are leaving for the city, maybe that’s why you can’t leave for work. For my womanly nature of being jealous, that too I am sorry to you. And my immature behavior. I can’t count all the things I am sorry for but I regret all of those already.
Our relationship has made me happy even when we were just friends. I believed in you, even now I still do. You are a friend and you always be. I am so happy and thankful for that. You were my source of strength and inspiration.
I loved you then, and I love you now.
Trials may come. Trials may pass. Right now, the strains that we are in are so hard to bear. I know you’ll never read this because you don’t stalk my blogs and my SNS accounts, but it’s okay. I know you are feeling the same way. I don’t know what’s wrong these days. I feel like you don’t love me. I know it’s all in my head.
Maybe, I have put you in so much pain that you can’t love me anymore at all. I just want you to know, that if ever you are thinking of leaving, I’ll set you free, no harsh words, no bitterness, no bad stuff because I know you have done your part and you made me happy and strong.
Thank you, because you’re a person who made an impact in my life. A change of perspective has been given to me. To the tears that have fallen while I was entering this post, I know you are not happy knowing about that.
If ever you leave, we can’t be friends anymore even if I want to. I know I told you we’d be friends but I lied.. It might take years. I believe I can never be friends with a man whom I believed to be a love of a lifetime and I could not get to spend forever with him.
My heart is breaking right now. I stopped talking to my friends about you already even if they were asking how we were because I don’t want anyone knowing about us. It is hard to get through to you right know but I know when the day comes, we’d be feeling better already.
As incohesive as this letter is, I wrote this with love and affection for you. I can never tell this to you. I love you more than what I show to you. You mean a lot to me.
tak pag higugma ha imo diri mawawara hin dali dali. diri ako maaram mag aano ako pero maaram ako na waray ako mahihimo. nag higugma la ako.
May 17, 2013. Bam.
You’re a dream. One that will end. One that will soon pass. I don’t know if you’re real or one of my silly imaginations. Maybe you’re feeling of love is getting lesser everyday. Anyway, I won’t fight it. If it will end, then I’ll let it be.
I’ll be neutral. Maybe a friend. But I won’t be as much as I was from last year.
I’m losing you. A reality I have failed to admit.
The lashes and the stings of words that cannot equal a wound will forever stay in one’s heart. Though it takes time to heal, it will never be forgotten. Scars will remain. Scars will remind. Life will go on.
I have at long last forgiven all of you for putting me down six years ago but I will never forget those words. The angst in them, the hatred. I did nothing but try to be strong for my loved ones not to be affected. Indeed, life will be more happier.
As I stared at you walking along the covered walk while waiting for my turn to vote (Ph midterm elections 2013) wearing that old maternity dress and silly leggings, I smirked. A gently maniacal laugh in my head echoed.
I had but all forgotten and forgiven you and your family for belittling mine, considering that if I were to judge you and your family solely, I’d describe you as trash. But I pity you, pregnant with a child, without a father, without a husband.
I clearly remembered when I was in high school and I was walking down the street to go to the market and you and your cousins call me names and defamed my honor, treated me like a helpless child bullied by evil kids. Yes, you made me frickingly stronger each day.
I survived your words. Your curses and swearing. Hah! See who’s emerging now!
That bullied young girl is emerging now! See where bullying got you! Ha!
You deserve this post of mine. I pity you, you helpless woman!
I will always be happy because I always try not to step on people. But, you.. You! Ha!
I have forgiven you. What happened to you will always remind me to be good and never treat others wrong because karma always double the hurt.
WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!
Fresh from crying, I gather up my strength. Tears start to fall as I start recalling to that night. I wish I didn’t care at all.
I feel alone in this relationship. My defenses are getting weaker. I feel that I should be numb already.
Can you stop pretending that you care? Can we stop the chase? I feel so jealous. You can’t even calm your own girlfriend?
My heart races and pounds. My thoughts run in circles of what- ifs and maybes. I feel so heart broken. So alone and gloomy.
Baby can we go back when you held me tight and when you told me that everything’s going to be okay? Can you crack a joke for me to smile a little?
A calm day just for us both is what I want. The summer sky is waiting to see us smile together.
All in all, we never left each other. No matter how hard things are, I hope we can still endure everything and go back to the way we were before.
“The strongest heart continues to love even after it has been hurt.”- anonymous
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